My name is Cindy and I am a designer. But what does that mean? We are all designers. We plan and execute our daily lives. I must not be a very good designer, because I can't successfully plan my own life, or maybe it's just menopause.

This is a four month Diary with daily posts about my struggle to find myself. Each day I will write what I did to meet my goals and share my thoughts about what I did, and how it affected my outlook and plans.

I've spent the past five years in utter chaos and confusion and I am starting to finally see my way through the fog. I plan to spend these four months, organizing my thoughts and desires, and healing my body and soul. It's a journey out of hormonal exile, and into emotional independence.