January 12, 2012

January 11, 2012

Today I thought it might be helpful to make a list of things I do and do not like to do. After all, at this stage in my life, I'd like to earn money, whatever amount, doing something I enjoy. I suppose in a later post I should list all the skills I have or do not have, because it's hard to be happy doing something you don't have the skills for. Just because it sounds fun, doesn't mean it will be.

I like: to yell (boy do I like to yell) - making jewelry - hammer metal (copper is my favorite) - breaking glass (yes really. I had a job where twice a year we got to smash all the glass samples, then they decided to sell them off instead, boo) - drawing with colored pencils (animal and people portraits) - Photoshop, and AutoCad. I love to do graphics and photo editing - flexible hours – travel – gardening – bird watching – teaching, sharing - designing (anything)

I hate: job interviews - customer service (providing) - 9-5 hours – cleaning anything – sewing, not really, but it's not my favorite thing – cleaning – getting yelled at - walking through mud – presentations – sales (I need to hire a rep) - annoying dogs, cats, people

I'm not sure all this is doing anything for me. I feel less motivated. I'm feeling that My best option is to add more items to my sewn offerings and just get over it. I can sew very well. It is what's supporting me now. Not well, but it is.

I had a dream last night that I went back to my old design company and with it I woke with tons of design ideas. I'm anxious to put them to “paper” I actually am going to sketch the ideas by hand before I loose them. I also came to the realization that I have a LOT to offer a company with my past experiences. And I realized that at my age, they might listen. I do have a different approach now, more insinuating and wise, less throttling and fighting.

I got the most wonderful Idea for a lamp or dining room chandelier. I have to draw it up and render it. Now I'm torn. I guess I could do both. Work full time designing and create on the weekends. It's better than remodeling a house on the weekends at my age.

I started my Portfolio website today too. Looking good, but barely started. I had no idea how many drawings I have done. I have designs of lamps, chandeliers, bird feeders, string lights, post lanterns, bird houses, tabletop water fountains, solar lamps and lanterns. I have hundreds of drawings. Wow I was busy.


  1. Working towards your goals is always good, and getting inspired it's awesome too! Keep at it, Cinders!

  2. I think you have a lot to offer whichever way you go. You have a lot of creative talent to share!

    PS. Haven't been able to get onto Twitter - not sure if anyone else is having the same problem. See you on there soon Ihope!

  3. maybe you can private tutor/teach people...you know there are a lot of people who want to be more creative but dont know anything or need more skills. you sound like you have a ton of skills., are you in a decent area where others have money? i'm serious...either one on one or get together with a local art center and see about offering weekend classes for 6 weeks? dunno, best i can do :) good luck

  4. Paula, funny you mentioned that. I'm not sure that would provide the income I need, but I was just thinking I could teach a class or two of continuing education somewhere. Thanks for the encouragement.

  5. So, get all those ideas down on paper fast, get making that chandelier, and get sewing too! Then take a step back and ask yourself which you enjoyed doing most, and if you really want to go back to dancing to someone else's tune? You are so talented, whatever you decide to do you will be great! And you'd make a great tutor too :)